Purpose found!

On the 25^th of September 2009, I think I found my purpose in life.

This is a journey of me working in a church for almost a year.

I just came back from a camp. They called it the Diocese Young Adult Camp and some called it the Desperate Young Adult Camp. Nevertheless, it is still an inspiring camp after all. Indeed after I joined the camp, I was desperate. Not desperate as in looking for a relationship, which I already have by the way, but I became more and more desperate for God to reveal His wonderful plan to me. What is really my purpose in my life? I’ve been searching and asking for this question within myself for quite some time since after I worked for the past one year in church. I knew that I am going to serve God full time in the church since I received my ever first time calling from God about 4 years ago. My first calling from God was this one word, “Missionary”, so did the 2^nd time. I still remembered it happened when I was in the alpha course training on 2005. And God confirmed me again in 2006 before I went to KK for the Diocese Youth Camp. But this time, God showed me totally different pictures all together. God leads me to two pictures, one is I am singing on stage to many people and another one is, I’m giving my speech on the stage. I dare not to use preaching because I’m not too sure yet. And from there onwards I’m struggled which is the one?? Not until now...

Today as usual I had weekly share group (which function like cell group / Christian fellowship / gathering of believers for those who don’t know what a share group is) and one of my member share his story to us that his laptop was being snatched by a thief. Surprisingly to be honest, I don’t know why my compassion towards the thief somehow is more towards my member. To cut the story real short, they caught the thief but the laptop was broken and the guy was being beaten up like nobody business by strangers and the guy is 49 years old and he’s from Peru. Ended up in police station and the guy is still bleeding without medication provided to him because he’s a “criminal”. I shared this to Jenny, and she told me that she has no idea that "I have such a heavy compassion towards people". At first I was shocked as well when I heard that because I thought everyone will felt the same thing how I felt. She added, “Everything starts first with a heart of compassion”. Indeed I believed what she said was true. Jesus was full of compassions towards his people. I personally think that Jesus will cry or at least weep when He saw His people fighting against one another, quarrelling within a relationship and condemning one another within a friendship. Jesus had compassions those who are sick, those who being abandoned, those who are in need, those who are widow, those who are fatherless, and many more. We always tend to see what is on the surface, but Jesus never sees it that way on us. Like the Peru guy, somehow for most of us we will think that, well, maybe he really deserved it because of what he had done. But to me, I’ve asked myself many questions. If he’s not desperate he will not steal. And why he’s desperate? Maybe because he was in need of cash? Why does he in need of cash? Maybe he’s family is poor and maybe he can’t find a job in his own country. And why he can’t find job in his own country? Maybe he wasn’t well educated. And why he wasn’t well educated? Maybe he did not study when he had his chance to do so. And why did he not study hard? Maybe because of broken family or certain reason that makes him that way. Of course there are thousands of possibilities that caused him to be who he is today.

But imagine this, if he would know God anywhere in between his life, maybe he will not be who he is today. If he just knew that God is his provider, he would not steal. If he knew that God could be someone that can be accountable for, he won’t choose his own path. If he would just knew that God is looking after him, we probably will not live how he has been living now. And that is how I believed I found my purpose. I’ve been playing guitar for almost 5 years now. And each day I can see myself improving slowly in terms of musical knowledge and my techniques. I’m leading worship now in my church and thank God I did not sing too badly. I never knew it until just now, that actually all the pictures that I’ve seen, it’s actually one big picture of my life. Before I start typing this all down, I made a prayer to the Lord. I wanted to be good in what I’m doing now which is to be a better musician and a better songwriter so that I can share gospel through the song that I write. I wanted to go many places to have concert to share what Jesus has done in my life. I wanted to be the person that can bring chances to people’s life. Which is all together now a big picture. I sing on the stage, I do my speech on the stage and I went out to do my concert/sharing in other places. I started to think that I am born as a musician to do all these things. I pray and I hope God will use me and also not only me, also to all the musicians who had the same compassions like Jesus towards people.

God sent Jesus to die for us because of this very reason; He had compassions towards the lost ones. This is the Father's heart. I'm touched at this very moment.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year to all the chinese who celebrate CNY and also non-chinese who celebrate CNY also.. Hehe..

CNY is a season where there's lots of opportunities to earn money. You can do business on selling mandrin oranges, those CNY biscuits, dry meat (yuk kon), packets drinks, and etc etc. Below is a way to gain some profits during cny and that I find it... "Fresh" in a way.. Anyway, enjoy..

Today I went back to my hometown (stop asking, and yes, I do have hometown), so happened there's a group of kids aging was around 7-14 probably, were asking around for angpau. Oh, they are malays btw.. I was kindda like, ( -,-") man, their face is really thick.. They said this to us, "Gong Xi Fatt Chai aunty uncle. Boleh bagi angpau tak? Tak ada angpau bagi satu ringgit pun boleh". And they were like 7 or 8 of them. They go from one house to another house. It seems that they keeep smilling and laughing all the way.. I don't know whether are they having fun doing this, or do they really get angpau from those houses. I was sitting outsite and out of curious I observed them. Just to know whether can they really get angpau by asking like this. Of course on my side, instead of giving angpau, we gave mandrin oranges to them. Hahaha.. Hey, what do you expect? Give them angpau? 

Maybe when you don't have enough money next time, maybe, I mean seriously consider this.. Hahaha.. Go visit all your friend's house.. At least you'll get RM2 each house. Haha. If you're lucky, you'll meet their relatives as well.. And.... I'm just kidding.. Never do that.. That's just so rude..

Happy Chinese New Year!!

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Lately I’ve been very down. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually also been tested by the Lord. Wave after wave of disappointments. I guessed it’s another season to be mould by God. 

Please walk together with me dear Lord. Knowing that You're here with me meant more than anything else to me.. Hold my hand Lord and walk with me..

My oh my..

IT'S ALREADY THE LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR!!

 

Oh boy, we've entered the last month of the year already. This is so fast.. And this reminded me there is one more task that I should complete for this year resolution, which is to complete one more book.. Haha.. Have you done yours? You still have one more month left, in fact, you only have another 27 days left only.. Hahaha..

When I looked back what I've been through this year, well, it's a fruitful year I should proudly said. This year alone, there's a lot of breakthrough.

January

Firstly, FCC moved to a bigger church; from a shop lot to factory lot. When we moved to the new building, we were using the small conference room because the main hall hasn’t been completed yet during January.

 

February

FCC is forming an official committee member through nomination by the church members. The nomination was announced in this month.

 

March

The renovation is complete in this month. And on the 9th of March, we have our building consecrated by our bishop. Also during March we had our very first FCC English concert called “Love Actually”. Then continue with FCC Chinese concert called “The Red Compass”. And we had our very first annual general meeting and the new committee was formed.

 

April

Our Sabah diocese launched our very own album called “Set Apart”. The songs are great.

 

May

We had our Alpha course running on this month. And this is the month where she have to leave because of work. A sad month for me..

 

June

Our English Faith Music was started in this month.

 

August

The worship team went over to KK to join the youth camp. We are leading the group of people in worshipping the Lord and also sort of reunion with my love one.

 

September

We had our fun night on Music Revolution 2+. This is an event of reclaiming music for the Lord. Many people joined in the competition this time. Many of them wrote many good songs and also they did a good job as well in singing. This is really fun..

 

October

We had the final round of MR2+. Winner was announced and prizes were given. Cash baby.. Hahaha.. Then the following week, we are blessed to have the “Covenants Players” to serve us in our church by playing a drama for us. Then another following week, we had an opportunity to attend Cat & Dog Theology classes conducted by Rev. George Ong from Singapore.

 

November

We had our confirmation service. 30 over members was been confirmed this time. Thank God for all the new members that was been confirmed. This is the month also that I joined the staff team in my church.. Hehe.. 

 

December

This month is exciting month. On the 24^th of December, we will have Christmas manna. It’s an event and it’s a musical drama event. We’ll be performing live musical drama on stage and also there will be dance during that night. Let me give you a little clue what dance it’s going to be.. Hip hop dance baby.. Hehehe.. Do come and join us and enjoy the musical night. Songs were written by our own member specially for the drama, songs were great!! And of course, Christmas service on the 25^th.. There will be accapella.

 

Well, so much for this year... Next year it’s going to be even more exciting..

Internet down..

For the past few days I did not online. Man, now only I realized that actually I can stay survived without internet connection. Hahaha.. I so used to online everyday and every night. It seems like I can survive without internet.. (only for a period of time of course, still need to watch youtube.. haha)..

Preparation for christmas event is tough. For the past few weeks we are rushing for the dance routine that we are going to perform on christmas eve. I'm not going to tell you what dance, you come and find out your own on that day lah, haha, and yup.. I dance.. :P

My shoulder muscle were very tension these few weeks. Can't have a proper rest. Man, this is killing me slowly. But thank God for my colleagues. They bought me "salopas". Haha.. I think I didn't get the spelling right, but like whatever. Haha.

Yesterday our staff team had an early morning exercise. An aerobic I should said. But who knows, we got the wrong dvd.. Haha, the whole 50 minutes is all about working out your abs and 6 paxs.. Oh man, I tell you, it hurts like shit right now. I feel pain even when I sneeze. Will get a new dvd soon. :P

*Next tuesday, cycling in putrajaya.. Muahaha....

I don't know why..

I don't know why..

1) I easily forget where I put my things. 

2) I easily forget what incident happened.

3) I easily forget what I've heard and said.

I just don't know why.. 

Thank God for being a peacemaker..

..Now this is what I called share group..

..We argued and we forgive..

...And Rick do looks like Garfield.. 

Hahaha